Unfuckingbelievable.
I'm so beyond frustrated this morning.
Oct 27, I submitted to my husband. It was a new beginning for us, and some of it still works beautifully. But I should have paid attention to the advice I read that one should not attempt a D/s relationship if the marriage is troubled. And in my case, I now see why.
Somehow, Tony believed that this new relationship meant I was going to give up everything that in any way incensed him, made him feel insecure, made him suspicious...whatever. Which probably sounds reasonable to most people, except every little thing I do causes a reaction of that sort in him. "Who were you on the phone with?" "Why did you close that window when I walked in the room?" "Who are you talking to (while in IM on the computer)?" The answers, of course, don't matter, because no matter what I tell him (the truth, obviously), he continues to believe in "Becky's Nefarious Plan to Destroy Tony". He refuses to listen to reason. He refuses to listen to ANYthing other than his own neurosis. So, I'm going to continue this post just for him. Let us see if I can include everything he thinks I'm doing.
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I get up every morning and get Gregory to school. Then, I log into Second Life. The only time I'll log off for the next 12 hours is to relog for lag or glitch purposes, or if the game/region/sim crashes. I log in to my home site in world, decide which male player I'm looking to impress today and dress accordingly. If none of them are on, well, I just sit in my apartment and pine over them. So many men...my entire friends list, all forty or so of them, men men men!!! And of course, all of them are in on it. *snicker* Did you know that? I got forty men to agree to be part of my "Becky's Nefarious Plan to Destroy Tony". How GREAT am I? None of them have real lives at all, they're, all part of just my little life.
I might get a little police work in. I might write a report, call upon my creative skills to come up with a new storyline for my character, who is, after all only single because she can't decide among the 934 men who want to be hers. And she only works every second of her life to hang around all those sexy male cops. She really does no police work at all. Her boss is well and truly fooled by the genius displayed to solve cases, write fabulous reports, and run the entire police department when the Chief is not around. Muhahaha! I am viciously awesome.
So, sooner or later, one of those male friends of mine logs on. And let the fun begin! I've mastered the art of keeping the kids happy and their needs met on a level enough to fool the family. Nick actually can cook now. He makes lunch for Fia and himself most days while I sit, fixated on the computer, chewing on whatever edible substance I can grab quickly and get back to the desk. I can't quite get him to wash dishes though. So, everyone getting mad at me for the messy kitchen isn't really my fault. He just hasn't learned to clean up after himself yet.
Midian City...my home away from home. Oh, it's not a hobby, it's where I want to live. Post-apocalyptic ruins, criminals, whores, cybernetic beings, vampires, lycans, nekos...god...heaven on the screen. I'd never log off if I had my own computer and could get the kids to really take care of themselves and the house. I just don't quite trust Gregory with the toilet cleaner yet, and Fia has SO much trouble vacuuming the stairs. Ah, I suppose I'll have to continue to do some of it on my own. Well, they'll just have to live without me in world for 10 or so minutes here and there.
Some days I get a little tired of the post-war chaos. My character has so many men catering to her that it just gets to be TOO overwhelming. So I'll pick one, (because, after all, I can't BE in world without at LEAST one man by my side, can I??) and we'll venture out into another sim. See, I actually get really bored with Midian sometimes. So, I've created in actuality, thirteen other characters!! Most people would log off when they're bored, but not me! And NOT my men! We are ALWAYS in world until someone in our non-SL lives makes it impossible *POUT*
I'll list my characters here for you...you'll see the wide diversity in them, I'm sure. I'll start with the most important ones and work my way down.
Captain Alegria "Al" Dagostino, Midian City. Post apocalyptic dangerous island city. Second in command of the Midian Police Department, Commander of the Special Investigations unit. Sounds like a lot of hard police work, doesn't it? It's not...it's all just a ploy to get to have cybersex with lots and lots of pixels!
Alegria Dagostino, Necrotica Isle. Medieval city in present day, populated with all sorts. Seneschal Vampire in a coven called "Blood of the Sun". Seeking to destroy all evil in hopes of regaining mortality and redemption. Again, pretty awesome plot, huh? Just another ploy. Did I mention how incredibly sexy male vampires are? Momma.
Those are the two biggies. The rest of these are just here and there.
Alie, Fusion Beach. Nude beach bum. The only thing she wears is bling. Flashy jewelry, spiked stilettos, belly ring, tattoos. The ho-iest hair you can imagine. Sex every 10 minutes, boy, I promise you that.
Alegria, Korova Milk Bar. Dancer. Need I say more?
Ale, Thraldom Slave Auction. I get a new master every couple of weeks when they're too exhausted to take any more of me. As long as someone keeps me in a collar, I'm set!
Mistress Alegria, BDSM Haven. Dominatrix for hire. It's nice to have a break from the slave trade now and then. Makes good money too.
The rest of the characters are just variations on those. It's all about sex anyway, so the details really don't matter. As long as I have something to keep me IN world, fucking some male av's brains out, that's all I care about.
I really think I have most people fooled that I'm some sort of writer. Hehehe. Not a chance. But I do take the time now and then to cook up some pretty decent stories just to keep Tony at bay. I spent like, three DAYS writing character bios too, but just for the facade. I don't think it's working anymore, but oh well.
Gosh, I've sort of lost my train of thought thinking about all those men. I guess I'll go do something in my real life (dammit) with my husband and kids (pesky bunch) to try and get my mind off of it all. Tony nailed it...boy...he figured it out...I'm in world because he's just not enough for me. That must be why all the women I know have hobbies. Aly goes to school because her husband won't have sex with her. Janie and Andi learned to crochet, because their husbands are just morons. The list goes on and on. And here, we all thought the hobbies were just because we're sort of interesting people, not just wives and mothers.
****
That's what Tony thinks, anyway. Wouldn't you like to try that out for a day?
Unfuckingbelievable.
Oct 27, I submitted to my husband. It was a new beginning for us, and some of it still works beautifully. But I should have paid attention to the advice I read that one should not attempt a D/s relationship if the marriage is troubled. And in my case, I now see why.
Somehow, Tony believed that this new relationship meant I was going to give up everything that in any way incensed him, made him feel insecure, made him suspicious...whatever. Which probably sounds reasonable to most people, except every little thing I do causes a reaction of that sort in him. "Who were you on the phone with?" "Why did you close that window when I walked in the room?" "Who are you talking to (while in IM on the computer)?" The answers, of course, don't matter, because no matter what I tell him (the truth, obviously), he continues to believe in "Becky's Nefarious Plan to Destroy Tony". He refuses to listen to reason. He refuses to listen to ANYthing other than his own neurosis. So, I'm going to continue this post just for him. Let us see if I can include everything he thinks I'm doing.
****
I get up every morning and get Gregory to school. Then, I log into Second Life. The only time I'll log off for the next 12 hours is to relog for lag or glitch purposes, or if the game/region/sim crashes. I log in to my home site in world, decide which male player I'm looking to impress today and dress accordingly. If none of them are on, well, I just sit in my apartment and pine over them. So many men...my entire friends list, all forty or so of them, men men men!!! And of course, all of them are in on it. *snicker* Did you know that? I got forty men to agree to be part of my "Becky's Nefarious Plan to Destroy Tony". How GREAT am I? None of them have real lives at all, they're, all part of just my little life.
I might get a little police work in. I might write a report, call upon my creative skills to come up with a new storyline for my character, who is, after all only single because she can't decide among the 934 men who want to be hers. And she only works every second of her life to hang around all those sexy male cops. She really does no police work at all. Her boss is well and truly fooled by the genius displayed to solve cases, write fabulous reports, and run the entire police department when the Chief is not around. Muhahaha! I am viciously awesome.
So, sooner or later, one of those male friends of mine logs on. And let the fun begin! I've mastered the art of keeping the kids happy and their needs met on a level enough to fool the family. Nick actually can cook now. He makes lunch for Fia and himself most days while I sit, fixated on the computer, chewing on whatever edible substance I can grab quickly and get back to the desk. I can't quite get him to wash dishes though. So, everyone getting mad at me for the messy kitchen isn't really my fault. He just hasn't learned to clean up after himself yet.
Midian City...my home away from home. Oh, it's not a hobby, it's where I want to live. Post-apocalyptic ruins, criminals, whores, cybernetic beings, vampires, lycans, nekos...god...heaven on the screen. I'd never log off if I had my own computer and could get the kids to really take care of themselves and the house. I just don't quite trust Gregory with the toilet cleaner yet, and Fia has SO much trouble vacuuming the stairs. Ah, I suppose I'll have to continue to do some of it on my own. Well, they'll just have to live without me in world for 10 or so minutes here and there.
Some days I get a little tired of the post-war chaos. My character has so many men catering to her that it just gets to be TOO overwhelming. So I'll pick one, (because, after all, I can't BE in world without at LEAST one man by my side, can I??) and we'll venture out into another sim. See, I actually get really bored with Midian sometimes. So, I've created in actuality, thirteen other characters!! Most people would log off when they're bored, but not me! And NOT my men! We are ALWAYS in world until someone in our non-SL lives makes it impossible *POUT*
I'll list my characters here for you...you'll see the wide diversity in them, I'm sure. I'll start with the most important ones and work my way down.
Captain Alegria "Al" Dagostino, Midian City. Post apocalyptic dangerous island city. Second in command of the Midian Police Department, Commander of the Special Investigations unit. Sounds like a lot of hard police work, doesn't it? It's not...it's all just a ploy to get to have cybersex with lots and lots of pixels!
Alegria Dagostino, Necrotica Isle. Medieval city in present day, populated with all sorts. Seneschal Vampire in a coven called "Blood of the Sun". Seeking to destroy all evil in hopes of regaining mortality and redemption. Again, pretty awesome plot, huh? Just another ploy. Did I mention how incredibly sexy male vampires are? Momma.
Those are the two biggies. The rest of these are just here and there.
Alie, Fusion Beach. Nude beach bum. The only thing she wears is bling. Flashy jewelry, spiked stilettos, belly ring, tattoos. The ho-iest hair you can imagine. Sex every 10 minutes, boy, I promise you that.
Alegria, Korova Milk Bar. Dancer. Need I say more?
Ale, Thraldom Slave Auction. I get a new master every couple of weeks when they're too exhausted to take any more of me. As long as someone keeps me in a collar, I'm set!
Mistress Alegria, BDSM Haven. Dominatrix for hire. It's nice to have a break from the slave trade now and then. Makes good money too.
The rest of the characters are just variations on those. It's all about sex anyway, so the details really don't matter. As long as I have something to keep me IN world, fucking some male av's brains out, that's all I care about.
I really think I have most people fooled that I'm some sort of writer. Hehehe. Not a chance. But I do take the time now and then to cook up some pretty decent stories just to keep Tony at bay. I spent like, three DAYS writing character bios too, but just for the facade. I don't think it's working anymore, but oh well.
Gosh, I've sort of lost my train of thought thinking about all those men. I guess I'll go do something in my real life (dammit) with my husband and kids (pesky bunch) to try and get my mind off of it all. Tony nailed it...boy...he figured it out...I'm in world because he's just not enough for me. That must be why all the women I know have hobbies. Aly goes to school because her husband won't have sex with her. Janie and Andi learned to crochet, because their husbands are just morons. The list goes on and on. And here, we all thought the hobbies were just because we're sort of interesting people, not just wives and mothers.
****
That's what Tony thinks, anyway. Wouldn't you like to try that out for a day?
Unfuckingbelievable.
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