Age-old battle

maybe it's just me. maybe it's just my marriage. maybe it's just my husband.

maybe it sucks.

it's the time tested trial of who's job is more important...no...rather understanding that my job is AS important and AS difficult, if not more so, than his. i feel a total lack of respect from my husband as of late. and it's not just the job discussion. it's the way he talks to me. the way he undermines me. the things he thinks he's going to do knowing full well they'll upset me. the way he's so indifferent about this baby. and now he tells me that all the times he was trying to get me to stop taking my birth control were just an attempt to get me to have sex. he acts like he GAVE me this pregnancy as a gift.

bullshit.

well, i'm just not going to let it get to me anymore. maybe if i show him as much indifference, he'll knock off the bullshit. i have my children, my friends, my family. if he wants to put everything secondary to his job, that's his loss.

ugh that job. i don't give him hell about his job, because it's good money and it pays our bills...allowing me to be a SAHM. but he's so absorbed in it that he forgets why he's doing it in the first place.

i feel sad, and disrespected, and unloved. and more horribly, unliked.