Forks in the Road, Pt II
Originally published 03/04/05
i knew i'd come back to this.
our marriage continues to take 2 steps down and 1 step back. just barely holding back from impending doom, i fear. the worst part is, some days i couldn't care less. we both want another baby but we also both know the danger in that if we don't fix our marriage.
unbeknownst to me, he bought the book, "Relationship Rescue" by Dr. Phil. i'm stunned because i truly thought he despised that man. but i'm very happy that he notices the turmoil enough to do something about it. but curiously, and infuriatingly, he doesn't want me reading it yet. he took it upstairs after it arrived and started reading it. i figured i'd start on it while he's at work or busy in the yard, etc. he was angry! i don't understand THAT at all. needless to say, i'm reading it anyway. while he's at work or whatever. if i wait for him to finish before i read it, i'll be on my third husband.
every day is a struggle with him.
on a different note, he had his liver ultrasound yesterday. the results will go back to the doc and then he'll contact us. fucking disease...the people at the ultrasound place (doc included) had never even HEARD of it. so i hope they got the right images. also, he's got blood draws to do for liver/bile duct cancer. lots of finger crossing here. i mean, our marriage may be in the shitter right now, but i do love him and don't want him to die. besides, there are 4 kids here who adore him.
on a HAPPIER note, tomorrow is his 33rd birthday. i'm doing the cake, etc., and taking him out to dinner...but, isn't that funny? he's the one with the money!
anyway...off to buy his birthday present...more on THAT later haha!
i knew i'd come back to this.
our marriage continues to take 2 steps down and 1 step back. just barely holding back from impending doom, i fear. the worst part is, some days i couldn't care less. we both want another baby but we also both know the danger in that if we don't fix our marriage.
unbeknownst to me, he bought the book, "Relationship Rescue" by Dr. Phil. i'm stunned because i truly thought he despised that man. but i'm very happy that he notices the turmoil enough to do something about it. but curiously, and infuriatingly, he doesn't want me reading it yet. he took it upstairs after it arrived and started reading it. i figured i'd start on it while he's at work or busy in the yard, etc. he was angry! i don't understand THAT at all. needless to say, i'm reading it anyway. while he's at work or whatever. if i wait for him to finish before i read it, i'll be on my third husband.
every day is a struggle with him.
on a different note, he had his liver ultrasound yesterday. the results will go back to the doc and then he'll contact us. fucking disease...the people at the ultrasound place (doc included) had never even HEARD of it. so i hope they got the right images. also, he's got blood draws to do for liver/bile duct cancer. lots of finger crossing here. i mean, our marriage may be in the shitter right now, but i do love him and don't want him to die. besides, there are 4 kids here who adore him.
on a HAPPIER note, tomorrow is his 33rd birthday. i'm doing the cake, etc., and taking him out to dinner...but, isn't that funny? he's the one with the money!
anyway...off to buy his birthday present...more on THAT later haha!
posted by Rebecca | 7:03 PM
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